I was reading my journals over the past week and had came to realise that whenever I'm doing something that I know is out of God's will, everything will seem all good for that moment but come crashing down later on. I'll then think that I have learn my lesson and repeat the same mistakes again. Selfish desires are always my temporal fix to my longing for something more. Ugh, how annoying.

I am going to write it out in words today that I am going to align myself to His will and when the time is right, I will reap the rewards and the promises will be all the more sweeter. Going through the pain is just so not worth it.

On a side note, I think I might have contracted the swine flu (every flu I get is assumed to be swine flu by me so this is no big deal). It's like a lingering sickness that won't go away. Got this cough that makes me throw up and a throat that making my voice disappear bit by bit. Help me! And I don't have Medicare so I'm contemplating if I should visit the doctors to get myself some antibiotics.

Just celebrated Merdeka the other day. Was having a conversation with some colleagues of mine who pointed out that with the non-malays being oppressed isn't really independence at all.

I also think I'm coming down with the flu bug. My body is aching and I'm constantly getting goosebumps. Be aware whoever it is that actually gave t to me. I hate being sick.

Arrived on Monday and I'm feeling the routine all over again. It's going to be another 4 more months before I see my family again. Not that long to wait till our road trip to Sydney :)

Time passes by so quickly! And once again I'm doing the whole last minute packing and shopping thing all over. Have not packed neither have I bought everything that I want/need to buy. That said, I should save the money and shop in Malaysia though.

Can't wait to go back to a warm weather actually, no more bundling up in sweaters and walking around in bedroom slippers.

I have gave in and signed up for a twitter account - jocelyn_teh if you want to know what I'm doing. I'm going to see how addicted I will be to knowing what everyone else is doing.

Edit:

Ok it is addictive - always wanting to update what I'm doing all the time hehe

Wow it was so amazing. I can't even put into words what I got out of it. There's just so much going through my head right now, I don't want to forget what I have experienced in those 3 days.

Ps Lisa shared this on the first night which I thought was very empowering.

Daughter
A daughter is her father’s joy and her mother’s treasure because she quickens the heart. An heiress, she was hoped for and is their hope for the future. As the potential carrier and bearer of life, she is human wealth. Her creation was God’s altogether lovely crown of creation, the one who completes. Daughters are the feminine form, which embodies love, beauty, hope, and tenderness. A daughter is smiles, hugs, and laughter. She is a seeker of truth who asks many questions, longing to know who she is. She is a friend and comfort in your latter years. A daughter is like a priceless pearl.

I'll be flying home for my one week holiday very very soon. Have not started packing or doing any shopping so far, so Joanne if I come back empty handed, you're not allowed to be disappointed. I'm just hoping that the exchange rate for the AUD will continue to be the way it is or improve when I'm back because I've got so much planned for the dollar :)

Winter is bearable, although I think it has to do with me buying my new quilt that keeps me warmer. Can't wait for spring to come after having a peek at the new line of clothes in stores now.

It's been 2 weeks and I think I'm good to say that I'm going be to alright.

I refuse to write about grief because that will be admitting defeat, instead i will write about strength and courage....when I am ready.

Bought tickets back to Malaysia for August 8th - 16th :) Can't believe how cheap air tickets are now which makes it irresistible to not buy them.

Love Air Asia.

This means, I don't have to get a hair cut here for a ridiculous price and shitty cut. Instead I get to pamper myself back home where hair salons actually do a more comfortable wash. Also means I get to buy my winter clothes and jumpers at a cheaper price.

Love the improved exchange rate.